weiqi lies

i'll just be quiet and listen. i know nothing, i know lesser and lesser, or i should say from the very beginning, i know nothing. i do not know what to do. i do not know whether it's just something normal or it's something abnormal.
i am just so confused tonight. this is the worst night i had. bad dinner, bad conversations, bad time. i know it was bad night but i din feel very very upset actually. i had nights that are worst than this. but i just had this very uneasy felling in me. not doing any better even watching some stand-up comedy thingy. i do crack a laugh, but it doesn't help much.
i don't know. confused night. things have been going on for so long. i cant even put words into proper sentence and proper paragraph. things in my mind are so mess up. things going all about, all around, all around the place. i do not know how i am going to put all these little pieces together.
can everything just leave me alone, or can everything just get into place by themselves. can anyone tell me what i should do? i always run away or i do not know how to start trying to fix it. is it my to fix it, or it will be you? is there a problem?? i know nothing. i know nothing about everything.
how? i am confused. confused. confused. and still confused. it doesn't matter if you do not understand this. because it is not mean for you.

ps: i cant stop being confused. no.